you are your own worst enemy.

at least that is what i'm realizing for myself.
It is a necessity to train myself (as if I were a dog)to not hurt myself.

my last entry was 3 years ago...much has happened since then. I have read much and would like to jot down a few quotes so as to be less dependent upon my cell:

"From vanity we buy lenses that see all, and so lose everything". We blindly groped the world. One writer confesses, he missed the "holes, rips, tears, and bumps on others as well as myself....Reality was: Pores". How gross a realization and a reminder to look at the bigger picture because no detail is without flaw.
From the same author: "All beauty turned sour grotesque".

"If you want to be first then you must be last"

"sweet, so would I. Yet, I should kill thee with much cherishing". An interesting quote from old William that still strikes me each time I read it.

"No surface can be seen exactly as it is, if the eye that sees it is not equally remote from all its edges". This knocked me for a loop when I endeavored to read a compilation of the notebooks of Leonardo Da Vinci.

A recap from the giant of a work: The complete biography of Stalin
-two emotions that could unite society: fear and hatred of jews.
-"anti-semitism makes your vodka stronger and your bread more appetizing"
-my enemy's enemy is my friend
-Stalin dies 3-5-53, (the day he was planning his apocalypse)
-ussr falls august 1991

Other notes:
-father, sun, and holy ghost=earth, sun and spirit


two very common sayings: "my enemy's enemy is my friend" and (if I'm not mistaken)"you are your own worst enemy"(I'm pretty sure I didn't make that up)seem to contradict each other or at least, change the understanding of the other. If I am my own worst enemy then my enemy's enemy would also be me. And so I am my worst enemy and my friend.


You are under your control, you just have to realize it. I keep saying I don't want to hear about something or talk about it or be talked to about it and yet I notice, the very thing I mean is a thing that I talk most about. Control YOURSELF DAMNIT! I CAN do it. I just have to think about it.

My newest book is a collection of E.A. Poe's. Most all of what I read ends in death; it is quite captivating. I particularly like the one with the orangutan called: The Murders in Rue Morgue...or something like that.
If anyone reading has a book that they recommend, I'll add it to my list. Also any comments are apprecitated; I do get bored of the redundance of people's language. Not how we talk but what we talk about-we seem to be caught in a loop.

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